This is so uncomfortable

YES! i think that i have found out why i feel like there is something missing out during the holidays after like a few months... It is the fact that i've not been taking any Photos with a DSLR! AHHHH think of it is just killing me. hopefully i don't loose my touch after grinding and all the time spent on watching and reading photography and editing tutorials and getting used to all the diff. angles and stuff. it's not that i don't want to borrow my sis cam it is just that it is not in the house any more! ahhhh looks like i just have to save up and wait till i have enough hopefully i will be able to save up enough money before the early year IT fair so that i can get it at a better price. looks like i'll have to postpone my photo blog:( oh and it's also not that i don't want to use a compact cam it is just diff you know the fact is i can't really use a compact cam as well as a DSLR. you know what the thing that bugs me most now is the fact that there are so many people out there with so a DSLR and not saying that i'm like super pro now but honestly if you are going to use a DSLR and use it on auto you might as well buy a compact camera that will do a better job.And not saying that i'm super pro now or anything again it bugs me even more when those people with the DSLR takes like lousy photos. haha but i feel super bad now saying that i mean ok i have been at the postion once not taking nicew photos but at least i managed to get my framing ,angles and fundamentals right on a compact cam first before i moved on to a DSLR. i'm just like a fish swimming in a half-filled tank now, so uncomfortable. OH well we will just have to save, guess what i'm freaking not WORKING . i do wanna get a job but wait they all need me to work on sat and sun and even CHRISTMAS EVE and the DAY ITSELF . so it is not my fault for not getting a job:) but i need money and like fast :( so if you would like to donate to my fund to get a DSLR just tell me yea :) hahaha like that would ever happen :)