NICE BAND COVERS

SUPER like the solo at the end the name of the guitarist is called lance

Rend Collective Experiment . UK Christian Band

yea another uk band besides delirious that i like

Happy Birthday Beverley

Happy Birthday Bev! Doubt you'll see this but well its the thought that counts right. hahaha! guess that i still cannot for get your birthday! Well hope that your doing well across the sea at Maple leaf island :). " do you hear me talking to you across the waters across the sea... " hahaha! Yup, you are one special girl/friend :D and yea didnt make you anything this year. hahaha your first gift was your last ..

Scaly round sheep

:] well i'm posting this cause yea i dont want this blog to like die suddenly so yea here to put up a post since i'm actually ermm. hahaha i'll call it taking a "break" cause well you will understand after you read finish this post that i'm actually not suppose to be like posting now! Alright so School started officially so :D Orientation was GREAT super hyped cause design school is rather tight within so yea cheered like mad at the regatta on the last day of orientation which is last week. then yup school started, first of was design school's assembly which they call "Genesis" the director of my school is just so funny! alright then that just about took up my whole first lesson so, then i went of for my 3 HOUR break did i say 3! yes 3! then after that went of my FIRST LESSON(ideation) :] YUP rather fun cause i'm like taking only 2 modules(max for each block) for like 4 weeks(this is a 'block' if your wondering ) so for the next block i'll take like other modules. yea so basically my time table is totally different from everyone's as in everyone who is not in design school. so yea my holidays are only in aug and its like only 3 weeks not the sem holidays :/ and only 1 week in june :/ ook erm i just realised that this post is very all over the place so yea i'm really sorry :) cause i'm just typing out what comes out of my mind.

i shall try to make this better ok lets talk abt school work first ok so erm i'm taking 2 modules and they are V.press( visualpressentation) and Idea( ideation) ITS really tiring-ly fun. fun cause its like really relaxing ,i learn really alot during lessons and lessons are very hands on cause v.press is more of like craft work and ideation is like more if thinking abt ideas and just putting the ideas in paper in any way you want like draw or right ANYTHING! and the lectures are really good but i feels abit weird to calling them lectures cause we actually call them by their names like " JAMES " hahaha ! yea Quite cool huh and yea lessons are really relax cause you just OTOT ( own time own target ) but of course everyone is on task while having fun :)
alright but hahaha yea its rather taxing on my sleep too cause i have actually done like finish 3 assignments that are graded( actually EVERYTHING is graded) yup just within the first week ! and i have like 3 other assignments on hand right now due next week that is why i say that i should not be posting now. yea but its fun cause yea its what i like doing and hahahaha "playing with the big boys now' cause everyone in there more or less know how to draw but its just how well you can draw. Oh yea the above tittle for this post is actually one of my assignment that i've on hand which is 20 % of my ideation marks yea i'm like suppose to like paint this monster which has to be scaly round and have some sheep with it. yea and everyone got like different ones cause we sort of chose everything from 3 bags where you pick one piece of paper from each bag so yea.i got scaly round sheep.

AND GUESS WHAT ! I SPENT around like $$$ load of money just on my materials and some tools for like this week only. and i bought like crazy amount of paper!

yup with all that said. I THANK GOD that my class is like rather tight and crazy and fun yea everyone is like happy and we go for like lunch and "outings/excursions " went we got and get our luch outside or just to get materials yea hahaha and guess what hahaha there's only 6 guys in my whole class of 26 ;]

alright got to go and sheep now. hahaha sheep now !
so till next time
BRB :P

Guess what!

hahaha! yes ! YES ! YES !

guessed it yet?

hahaha GREAT right :)
hahhaa no i do not have a new drum set but guess what that's cobus' signature set
but that also means that his old hybrid set is gone:( hahaha but yea its not the drum set but the drummer right hahaha

something even better! is that he has finally uploaded new drum covers!!!
but of course with his new set

This is what love was meant to be

I give thanks to GOD for all that he has done for me especially for dying for my sins. :D this was what love was meant to be.

Kpop hits ?

Girls always ask why guys go gaga over SNSD i guess this video below explains



this is just brings it to another lvl HAHAHA!

M

M is for Megan

I know

Then again i recognise and admit that its one thing to say and one thing to do what you say. so yea...

Reason for my Stand Still from B.G.R

Alright this is gonna be a very long post and i shall make it as tidy as possible:)
the reason why i said i dont know what are my feelings towards Grace.T is cause i know that i'm at a stand still from relationships. which sort of means that i'm just letting go of all the feelings i once had fade away and just concentrate/ enjoy being single :)

REASON for Stand Still:

I BELIEVE THAT THE JOY OF INTIMACY IS THE REWARD FOR COMMITMENT

alright you might have just went WTH!? whats that. well to put it in simple terms, i believe that the reason why people get into relationship is cause all of us yearn for intimacy. Sad to say lots of people are getting this intimacy without the commitment via this thing called DATING

DATING
what's so wrong abt dating you may ask. well first, for me it will be that there is no commitment.Alright to further my point on commitment what i mean by commitment is actually commitment to actually marry the person someday and not just ok committed to this person for like what 7 months, no. Next, dating is actually very self-centered. "why?/how can it be?" you may ask, as in, it can't be self-centered since there is actually 2 people involved.This is the ugly truth, whether you realise it or not people get into the relationship(s) they are/was/were in cause there was some thing they wanted form the relationship. it ranges from the simplest of things like just the "name" of being someone's boyfriend or girlfriend to the physical want, SEX. SO YEA! WHY WOULD I WANT TO GET INVOLVED WITH SOMEONE WHO'S PRIMARY OBJECTIVE OF BEING WITH ME IS SO SELF-CENTERED. i won't say that i am not self-centered, i mean i know that i've been self-centered by you know purposely taking/impressing the girl i like cause i totally wanted something from her which is for her to like me BUT! i've come to know that its wrong and i'm trying to change my thinking and actions towards girls by seeing them as Sisters to love rather than potential girlfriends. Other then the 2 mentioned, like it or not everyone you have a relationship with you actually leaves behind some sort of emotional attachment,unless you totally/ plainly got into the relationship with no heart at all for the other party but just to get what you want then i've got nothing to say. So to put it in a sort of like picture for you, ok so lets say you're getting married on the day itself and just as you thinking that it will be foolish of the priest/rev/pastor/the person who does the marriage vows for you to ask if anyone objects. Suddenly,to your surprise 3 to maybe even 7 people stand up and started to walk towards your other party and they too say that they are getting married to your other party cause your other party has an emotional attachment or they had an emotional attachment to them. how wold you feel? betrayed? but what happens if your side of emotional attachment stood up and went to your side?feeling ashamed just won't you. LASTLY the relationship without commitment some how will just come to an end.

SO WHAT IS THE USE OF DATING ?

what? to practice so that you will be super good when you get together with the one you have decided on? like how abt that's completely and utterly foolish.So if that is so what is the difference between calling it dating to calling it a training ground for divorce? no diff there right ? Furthermore to me dating JUST causes more problems. First, it skips the friendship stage where you get to really see,understand and choose whether or not you really want this person as your future partner. Number 2, when you get into a relationship skipping the friendship part which to me takes long to build up,you will be in a wrong state to judge how or who is the person you are in the relationship with.its just like you being Very hungry and have only been drinking plain water for the past few days, what ever that i bring and serve to you,it will just feel like the best food ever.same way if you are in a relationship with someone you will think that the person is the best no matter what cause you are apparently " in love"( which i will touch on later). Number 3, it will cause you to mistake physical relationship for love. what do i mean. simple if he/she held your hand tightly,whispered sweet nothings to you,kissed you or even had sex with you how sure are you that, that is love!? as i said just now many people are self-centered when it comes to relationship,they do it most likely to get something else.Number 4, it will draw you away from your FAMILY. you might ask why? and say' ok what?! i have good relations with my family and i got talk to them ma.' but honestly ! if you are dating who much of your time would be spent with your family, ok let's not talk abt spending time how abt just how much time spent on just thinking abt your family?! i guess you know the answer. you will just spent more time just thinking or spending time with the other party and what makes it worst it will come to an guess what ! you've just wasted your time one someone who will not be there for you forever cause there is no commitment! rather than the people(your family) who will be there with you forever!which makes your " 4ever togther " not so forever huh! by taking the attention and time of the other person, you are sort of like "owning" the person and what right do you have ? your not committed to marry the person so how can you so how can you do this ? it will be even worst when you start to feel jealous and become possessive without commitment! LASTLY, it might just rip you off of your purity. i guess i dont have to go deep into this you know what i mean, sex!

BUT WE JUST " FELL IN LOVE "

yea then again you might just, it was 'love' that brought us to get and we just sort of fell in love!

so what makes you so sure that you won't just sort fall out of love !?

LOVE
what is love? if you said that you love/loved this guy/girl

or

this guy/girl love/loved you.

so we have to first sort of state out what love is to you. if its lets take an example patient. you say you love this guy/ girl but some how this didn't work out and you had to wait a few years but you still love this guy/girl, but after awhile you found someone new and you now say you love this other guy/girl so was that "love" for the first guy/girl real love? it ain't cause it was not patient enough to wait for that guy/girl you 'loved' if you believe love to be patient with that said of course love includes other things like you know being self-less and etc. etc. so just compare it if one part is missing then its not love,right ?

WHAT IS IT THAT YOU CAN'T GET OUT OF JUST FRIENDSHIP?
yes what is it that you cannot just get out of just being friends. i'll tell you things that need commitment thats what you can't get. Then you might ask' but i can get these things without commitment by just dating!" precisely my point made about dating it is without commitment,its self-centered and it won't last! Furthermore, friendship keeps you at the right amount of intimacy you need.

THERE ARE STILL COMPLEX ' FRIENDSHIPS'
yes with all of that said abt friendship and all. so yes you may choose to just to stay at friends but just that you term yourself as " special/close" friends(taking abt opposite sex here ) which deep down you know that what you have between you and that "friend" have is not just a normal friendship but some what like a boy-girl relationship but just without the status!So even this will cause you to have some sort of emotional attachment to the person, like it or not! and when this "friendship" ends it will tear you inside out just as bad a a break up from a relationship cause its just a relationship without the proper status.

WHERE YOU DRAW YOUR LINE MAY NOT BE WHERE OTHERS DRAW THEIR LINE
yes where you draw your line may not be where others draw their line. you may just wanna be pure good buddies but if you send the wrong signals and do the wrong things it will cause others be mislead and they might actually want more than what you want. Another thing about drawing your line, YES you may draw your line at no boyfriend or girlfriend.However that can be a very thin line or a thick line, cause it can be thin cause of what i said above not boy or girlfriend just "friends" or it can be thick cause, you can actually choose to just stay at the basic stage of just friends and nothing more no strings attached! THERE IS ALWAYS A CHOICE !

BOTTOM LINE EVERYTHING HAS TO BE RIGHT.everything has its time!
YES everything has to be right, it has to be the right girl/guy at the right time and right commitment, which makes it the right thing to do. just one thing wrong wont make it right. think abt it right girl/guy,right commitment but wrong commitment, wrong thing. right girl/guy, wrong time , right commitment, wrong thing. the most obvious wrong girl/guy,right time, right commitment, just plain wrong thing. if you believe that there is this like special someone for you then why would you still resort to dating and relationships after relationships? it makes no sense right !? how would you be accountable to your special someone next time?!Another way to put everything in a way to relate it would be like buying clothes what happens if you have the money(commitment) but can only buy the clothes(partners) which you dont fit in,or you have dont have the money(commitment) but you managed to find the perfect fit(partner) in both cases you wont end up happy right? so it can only happen when everything is right, right?

However this is my personal stand and views so yea these are the reasons why i am coming to a stand still form BGR and if you were wondering what is a relationship with commitment its courtship not dating . i actually find myself blessed to not actually date before which may seem like a sad thing in the world's view but i count it as a blessing. but i do have my problems with "friends" which tore me up which made me even more wary or what would actually happen if i got into a dating relationship.What more i can serve GOD, grow and get to know him on a more personal and special way. as in its different when you serve and grow and get to know GOD when your single rather than being in a relationship cause even if your relationship is built upon/ with God in it the way you serve and grow would be totally different and some how when you serve or grow or even just getting to know GOD its much easier when your single. So treasure ans use this Singlehood that GOD has given to us wisely all you Single Brother and Sisters out there:)

Setting things straight AGAIN

i think that i'm super bad at this

hahaha ok first of some things to clarify
yes if you guys have actually thought of whether anot i actually

like Grace TAN! the answer is yes i do have feelings for her!
BUT!!! HELLO DONT GO ALL CRAZY LIKE YOU HAVE FOUND A THICK JUICY PIECE IF

GOSSIP ! cause i trust that this thing will not go out of hand and spread like wild fire cause if you are hearing this for the first time then hahaha most likely i've managed to keep it under the radar and yes i would like it to stay that way cause i'm at a Stand Still for B.G.R, i dont want any drama to happen now, of course not cause any unwanted attention,i'm totally not ready and i am really just unsure of the feelings i have to her now. so yea better steer clear from anything that will hinder me now from growing and screw up my whole time being a teenager

Dear Bev , ... ... ...(edit)

Guess WHAT! i had another dream of the Maple Leaf girl :) but this time its not a sweet as the last one.
however, it has got me thinking that she actually hits the soft spot in me.

i guess the 5 years waiting for her still left bits and pieces within me.

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Some things that i need to set clear.
the Grace from the last last post is Grace Tan. Not the ONE FORM DHS !!! one
hahaha YEA and I DONT LIKE HER !!!
(kindly Erase all of the funny thoughts you have )

Awesome MV :)

SUPER LOVE THIS MV CAN!!!!!
When is MCFLY COMING TO SG!!!!!

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I've HAD IT
I'VE ENOUGH OF IT !
:):):)

Darn it 'draft' messages :

The MOST embarrassing thing happened to me today.

well it happened like this,
on friday night gabe asked if i can help to message the whole cell group abt sunday's outing at ECP.ok

i agreed,sent the First message out.ok

On the next day, i was told to relay another message .ok
so i sort of retyped the message and as i was abt to send it out, liren messaged me so i had to look at the message.hence i saved it under drafts.ok
then i was a bit flustered cause i just help pack up like some of the stuff in church cause well they are like rebuilding the building, and i was also trying to look out for the MRT. which was coming in 1 min.ok
so without thinking much i opened, drafts, then while i was looking out for the MRT i think my finger hit on like the message where i saved a line of a song i heard on the radio so that i can find it when i reach home.stil ok
not knowing that it was the wrong message i just started to send it to people!and i didn't know!!! SUPER NOT OK
and the reason for me to be so embarrassed over this is cause the part of the song i remembered is this

" I can't sleep,

Without you next to me,
I toss and turn like the sea"
And guess what i sent it to like 2 girls. but thank GOD its only 2,my phone can max send to only 10 people so only 10 got it and not the other 10, and one of the girl is like Johnia so (dont kill me johnia) dont need to care on lah but that means that the rest is like guys!!!

hahaha ok so the funniest thing happen when i sent the message out and had no idea abt its content.its the replies that i got back.
Ky: -.- er. haha
josh.gan : Huh? tonight tell u whether i going anot
Johnia:want tosend to grace right then send wrong right. lol. kidding. its the song right!! lol
iz: ya the sea. a man on the sea=? sigh why so dirty minded chuan ?

Another thing i actually sent that to EVON!
so i told Liren abt the incident when we met up later at city hall
me: you know what and i messaged it to Evon!!! T.T
Liren: HAHAHA! GoodLuck! *pats my back,keeps smiling, have a look like some target has been taken off him and prance around like for 1 sec*


P.s:

1) i dont like grace.

2) this is really my mistake.
3)Enjoy the song.

Happiness

Happiness is like peeing in you pants,

Everyone can see it,

but only you can feel its warmth... :D

M fever!!! :)

IMAC
Gonna Get a MAC soon
Ate MAC's for dinner

AND M is just overwhelming cute can :)

:) :S :( ;) :O :D

:) alright time for an update. well eh CNY was pretty much the same hahaha just that there is like much more cameras all around( lazy to explain). Started work, which i like killer! dam shit! have been standing for like 42 hours ? ready. hahaha but my legs got used to it on the third day. Tmr will be my last day. Working in the afternoon so hahaha not going for Cell :P hahaha! its not my fault but they placed my off today, which is on sat. so yea i thought that i will be working today but sigh who knows.

Maybe its just part of growing up but yea i guess the world is not as pretty as i imagined it to be.People just don't turn out to be what you had in mind of what kind of person they are, then again i guess we will just go along with the flow and get used to it eh?
WELL on a lighter note i thank GOD for family :) i've got to say that i've got super supportive parents. From knowing that i'm a whole different child from my sis, to supporting me in almost everything i do and even to just keep asking me if i'm doing fine :)

I guess New Year means new things right ? hahaha ! WELL!!! I'm a BAND ! yup well it started of with just me and Darren. hahaha but being Darren he pulled in place 3 more people and now we are a 5 piece band. We are Called Ease the Pain. Well its pretty much going to be a new ball game for me considering that while jamming with the brothers we only did mainly pop/ rock songs. well in Ease the Pain we are going towards post-Hardcore (w/o screaming ) hahaha ! yea hopefully i'll be able to manage through this year with all the stuff that i have to handle. :)

Ps: we are looking for a keyboardist and yea we've got both a group and fan page on FB and our Myspace will be up soon in March...

ITs not the best but it allows me to pull off a smile

i'm going to avoid/procrastinate you in my thoughts /pretend not to care abt things abt you cause i can hardly pull off a smile this few days. ITS really tiring being on the giving side, when you dont know where the 'things' you give go to. I really need a clear sign !!!

I am FIT

I AM IN SHAPE, ROUND IS A SHAPE :P
(that was from crystal )

:S

LOOKS LIKE MY FEELINGS ARE REALLY STIRRED UP THIS TIME ( it gets more and more each time )

I've got a Tender Heart

Don't turn away
I'll Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Don't be afraid

Just keep remembering me, you got my heart
When you fall apart
I'll Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Life is always hard
For the Belle of the Ah Chuan's Heart

TIK TOK parody

Do you Think so TOO?

i happen to be stumbling along many people who, got together with their " ohh so in loved- one " althought knowing that it is totally not going to work but some how being stubborn they lie to themselves that there could be a way and just went ahead to throw their whole being into concentrating on that particular " ohhh so loved-one " , who turns out just to a/another Heartbreak ! Don't you think that it is kinda a Loser thing to do? seriously i've this happen too many times and GUESS WHAT! I still feel sad for them but for them being so ignorant/stubborn

I guess that is why everyone wants to be a winner.

its 1111 now :)

yeaits 1111 pm now... ok i guess its over its 1113 now. well honestly these few days i have been thinking even MORE so yea i have come to a few conclusions and i shall share them :) hahaha! 1) Feelings and emotions are 2 different things ; cause feelings are involuntary while emotions are sort of caused becasue there is a reason of you to feel that way. ok i shall give examples you know how you feel hungry, how you feel tired, how you feel hot, well more or less you will have to experience all this cause they are sort of like things that you cannot control... while for emotions like you feel jealous cause there is a reason/thing that can be controled that made actually made you feel that way right :) .... AHH don't feel like explainning anymore

If there was a "NIAN" it probably ran away casue ... :P hahaha!

Chinese Lady GAGA or just Eng to Chinese lyrics fail( joking lah )
this is so funny and just nice the lunar new year is coming :P

I'll call it a Blessing/Plan

it was 10am going to 11 am, when my mom me up with these words " HEY! QI LAI LEH! OH! YOUR POSTING HOW ARE !?" . Being uber tired and still have awake i took my phone and i saw 2 missed calls, and 2 messages when i opened up my first message the first thing i saw was my name, temasek and visual communications hahaha! then i actually managed to do a you know the you pull your ellbow back with a your fist closed together:) hahaha but still lying on the BED then i told my mom who was still standing beside me an she was like " REALLY?! " then after i got a like got like much more awake i went online and replied all the messages that asked abt my posting hahaha and know what 1. loads of my friends are going to TP but not many to the design school, 2. when i messaged Gabe he was actually called to comfirm with me that it was Temasek hahaha! 3. i gave Kia Yang a shock telling him that i went to TJC :P hahaha anyways i'm just feeling really good today:) GLORY BE TO GOD & THANK GOD :D hahaha but at the same time we have to remember our friends who are appealing and keep them in prayer like my dearest,KAN KAN and other friends who are also appealing :) hahaha all the best guys :) i guess secondary school is really over ...

SOMETHINGs THAT I JUST REALISED

Girls do not dress for boys.
They dress for themselves, and of course, each other.
If girls dressed for boys, they’d just walk around naked at all times. :P


Its amazing how much we can keep bottled up inside of us?
And what’s even more amazing is how we can just walk around and no one would have any idea.

Sigh

Most prob going to stop blogging for a While cause there are a few things that i wanna trash out but can't do it here so yes this is more or less going to be a Photo Blog i guess:) hahaha i have no idea why but hahaha someone(like yesterday) have talked to me on msn(for the first time) as in out of the blue i guess,but it made me sorta happy i guess. BUT( i just realised that i use 'but' alot ) hahaha things are just the way they are and you can't really change them right ?

YOONA!!!

Yoona is this really pretty girl :) from SNSD she's the girl in the red skinnys first row at the start of both videos :) well this is what i'm taking abt not dressing sleezy and yet looking super cute while not over doing it totally captures my attention :) yes a girl has to just dress properly and you can actually capture a guys attention just like Yoona :) but man her smile is just dam sweet i tell you i like!
this is Nichkhun who also looks very cute! and guess what they like each other!!!

These DAYS

i tell you these fews days HAVE been KILLER!!! espicially TODAY although i just hit my 9th hour being awake for today :P cause i woke up at 3PM hahaha ok not the point hahaha the point is how am i going to last until April!!! hahaha this is so killing me and worst Caleb is going to start school so one less person to go out with. I had an idea of just being a loner and go watch movie by myself from like feb to April like for every week day haha but i thought about it again and haha i guess i dont have the money to do so ... but yea i managed to watch a movie today haha by myself hahaha but not in the theater either so hahaha you know where i watched it :P hahaha ok! OH MAN i just realised that i have not dated PAM since CHRISTMAS hahaha oppss looks like someone overtook PAM's postion :P hahaha nah Kidding Pam has a special place in my heart that only GOD can take away :)

i feel like Jamming but no one seems to have the time ? ALI and Caleb Pls tag if you see this can we jam on Sat since Isaac is having prac too ? hahaha !

Pouts

i guess people do make mistakes... i made one in thinking that she was like "maple leaf " girl i guess she's not and that is why i like her. i just think too much sometimes .

Saturday!!!