If only I can know if i am in your diary everyday(:

Dairy of Jane by Breaking Benjamin
for those of you who don't get this song it is acctually a guy trying to get into a girls dairy which means that he wants to make himself mean so much in the girl which he likes life:)so you would now prob know why i changed Jane to ______.

If I had to
I would put myself right beside you
So let me ask
Would you like that?
Would you like that?

And I don't mind
If you say this love is the last time
So now I'll ask
Do you like that?
Do you like that?

No!

Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.
I will try to find my place in the diary of ______.
So tell me how it should be.

Try to find out what makes you tick.
As I lie down
Sore and sick.
Do you like that?
Do you like that?

There's a fine line between love and hate.
And I don't mind.
Just let me say that
I like that
I like that

Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.
I will try to find my place in the diary of ______.
As I burn another page,
As I look the other way.
I still try to find my place in the diary of ______.
So tell me how it should be.

Desperate, I will crawl
Waiting for so long
No love, there is no love.
Die for anyone
What have I become?

Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.
I will try to find my place in the diary of ______.
As I burn another page,
As I look the other way.
I still try to find my place in the diary of ______

Thinking too Far?

well frankly speaking i am very tired. however school has been rather fun these days but i am still so tired am my oh my what'sup with like all the teachers with all the sudden seage of class tests that just bombs on you like one day before the test which totally kills your mood for the whole day. oh well what to do O's are coming so just take the test asafter all they do not get inculded in the O's so ahhh anything i realised that i have not really been laughing my ass off on just a single thing for a long time and feel really happy for a even longer time i feel... i kinda don't feel that's the part that sucks or actually i don't know how to explain it i may laugh and all but it is rather temporary... perhaps i just need someone to talk to right now something tangible yea kinda sad right... i have been wondering what will happen after i die but it is not more of where i end up cause i am sure of where i will end up:) but it is more of what will happen to the people i know who are still alive. how my parents would react to it how my class would be like without me how my church will be without me how my cousin and aunties will be without me how many people will cry upon hearing the news that i died how many people will attend my funneral how many people would still remember on my birthday how many people would remember my death aniversary how my room will be how and where my things will go where would my bass be given away?how my sister would react how my best bros would jam how the girl which have fallen for me would react (not of any i know) how my girlfriend or wife would react(not that i have one ) haha well it is rather scary yea :) haha but if there is going to be a big commotion or affect people's lives it would mean that i actually impacted or play a part in many people's lives yea :)

Rather pleasant weekend:)

yup the week ends have served me well cause managed to blow of so steam from school:) then eh haha went out with Caleb on Sat to Marina Square cause he wanted to Buy new shoes and he did bought. eh he bought a puma. went for dinner with him haha at first he wanted to eat subway then i was like eh my mom tell me pizza hut got 1 for 1 deal leh then so we walked to pizza hut and we ordered a regualr and got 1 for free haha when we were ordering it was rather funny cuae the convo went like this.
---convo---
waitress:ready to order?
caleb:yea... can we have the one for one
waitress :so which one would you like to have the regular or large
caleb points at the regular one
waitress: ok. would you like to add $4.50 for asoup and a drink?
both of us:eh no
waitress : any side order? *then she starts to say out every side order and points them out to us *
both of us:ehh... no *start to laugh *
waitress:drinks?
both of us: ehh ok
----end----
haha then after awhile we realised that there were alot of like Bengs in Pizza hut and they were like wearing like formal into pizza hut and Caleb just kept on saying i don't get them you know. haha then ying ying came then we ate then started to walk all around Mirana then haha i had to leave early cause my mom wants me home by 930 so went home earlier then left the 2 of them just as i left them we like say this sea of red people guess why. NDP haha but thank GOD the NEL line was not packed haha mybe people ataying here don't go for NDP or something haha .ok then today haha managed to wake up at 930 although i slept at 3+ onn sat cuase i was lending a listening ear to a friend ,usinf my GOD given humor and i was watching the Tyra Banks show just as i planned to like fall a sleep so i watch it until my Dad told me to stop haha but my sis was still awake with me:) haha then ok so i woke up at 930 went to church managed to reach there on time then eh went for lunch then went back to church to watch FIREPROOF if you guy have the chance watch the movie very good movie but mainly for Married couples cause it is about marriage. haha now you must be asking then why you go also not married yet. haha yea not married but still can go watch mah same reason as you study for o's then go for O's right so i must understand marriage then i ccan get married right :) haha the movie is also rather funny and slow fade the song was used haha nice song. the movie can also be found on YOutube just you tube FIREPROOF and you should be able to find a playlist consisting of the whole movie:) alright cya:)going to study for Chem test that is tmr haha

Luck-O-Meter

hahaha if this is so i should be able to have like any girl in my hands now:) haha so should i get one now? haha

Cobus the drummer(edit)

found this drummer's called Cobus who is 22 this year video quite sometime ago and to me his drumming is awesome and he does many kinds of cover from hillsongs to paramore and many more so do check out his videos and the ones below are the ones that i want CALEB KAN to see. ps: he makes Jonas Brothers sound good:)oh i think that Darren Ong can play somewhat like him:)

Don't think that it is going to happen i guess

ohh my i just like realised that the mail TP sent was just to aid them in the Selection process to get who they want to like interview and i guess i answered one of the question way too honestly and the Question was[do you have a art portfolio which can include your works form in or outside of school, works form your art or D&T classes] something like that i think and i answered[i don not toke art or D&T i do not have one but i have a portfolio filled up mainly with photos that i take and edit myself and a few(3) sketches. is that acceptable?] haha so i guess i will just have to wait on and see what happens but i guess that i will have to just bounce back into studying now and most probaly forget about it. haha oh ya i am not upset or anything so no need to like comfort me or anything:) haha another reason why i think that it is not going to happen is because like i kinda heard that the design school have already called in for interviews so haha PS: i am not upset or anything again:)

YES MAN THANK GOD

THANK GOD :) I FOUND THE EMAIL THAT TP SENT ME :) phew it was acctually marked as Spam and the new version of Gmail hides the spam option and you have to like click on the use old version then you will be able to see the spam button:)

DPA

ohh my i have no idae to Yeah or what now haha but first of all THANK GOD Temasek Poly SMS-ed me today at 6.03pm today to tell me that they have recived my DPA appilcation and asked me to look at my email account immediately BUT, to my horror i can't find the Email so i decided to call the Poly right away but to my horror again it was left on a answering machine cuase they close at like 6pm then i msged them back and i also emailed them back. so Pry Hard that they will see it and re-send it and hopefully it is tmr that the interview is posted on so yea.THANK GOD

What i did in June

Plaxmax

Xue Zhen B'day

Jolynn's B'day

Youth Month

Youth Month

Youth Month

Dissapointment but not fully

haha went to watch Harry potter today and well all that i can say that it is not a show for the young kids anymore cause this one is more based for the teenagers.However it is not as exciting as the previous ones and it is just more of walking and talking and only a slight bit of fighting where only one character(haha not going to say who cause maybe some of you haven't watched it yet) died,and the way he died was like -.- 'ok so he died. now what?' haha and the ending is rather abrupt yea cause like you will be left like ' huh ? end ready ar ' haha but , i must say it is rather hard for the film producers to like practically show everything cause you know the book sort of gets thicker and thicker so ohh well can't possibly have a 4 hour long movie right haha ohh but man must i say Emma Watson and the Jenny girl look real hot int his movie so for that it was rather worth it. and ohh i watched Obsessed too ehh the story starts of abit abrupt and is also abit predictable , however there are still nice moments and i think that it is a guy movie or a guy bring girl movie so guys either bring a girl to watch this or bring a girl to watch it cause it will be fun cause for guys to go with guys haha you get to see like the obsessed girl and her radical ways which will make you go (O-O ) haha but over all haha i think that for that movie, Obsessed is really the correct name so cya

feeling of guilt

hahaha well i just realised that i did a few uber wrong moves these past 2 days. ok first well actually planed to watched like obsessed with Alvin, edwin and winston so all was like set then Justina msg-ed then they were like asking if i wanna join them to like go and celebrate meiting and alvin's birthday then i like oh shit how to tell them? then i called alvin then haha he just woke up then he was like sry ar my mind not clear now i talk to you later hahha. ok then so we decided to go on with the same plan which is to watch Obsessed then cause we didn't want like justina and the rest to feel like we ps them so we decided to say like we can't make it which was like super stupid to do, and cause at the same time we can't possibly ps Ed and Winston so yea and we were on a tight buget so yea but then haha when we decided to go to Kovan to eat dinner we thought that they all went back ready haha then to my surprise haha when i was just about to step into the hawker centre, Stella walked past me and she told me that the rest was like playing pool and haha what an irony haha cause i was like like Cya on msn to stella then she was like i also not going to see you later (or something like that) the... haha we met each other in the end haha. ok then went to the pool place to like say hi and that was when we decided to spill the beans cause it just too stupid to hide it haha thank GOD everyone was cool with it :) haha ok and next THE MOVE WAS EVEN WORST THEN THAT IS THAT I DECIDED TO TAKE UP A FREE TICKET TO HARRY POTTER WHICH IS AT 430 TMR AND GUESS WHAT THE GUYS ARE GOING TO JAM TMR ARHHHHHHH DAMMIT WANTED TO JAM FOR SO LONG AND THEY ALSO PLANNED TO WATCH HARRY POTTER AFTER JAMMING AHHHHHHHHHHD DAM IT AND MOST OF ALL EVERYONE IS GOING ANDWE BROS HAVEN'T BEEN HANGING OUT ALONE FOR A LONG TIME AND EVEN MORE JAM AHHHHHHHHHHH OMG DAMMIT HOW I WISHED THAT I COULD JUST GO LIKE MAYBE THE CINEMA LAST MINUTE DISSAPEAR OR SOMETHING THATN I CAN JOIN THEM :( but i am going to have a long day tmr like physics early in the morning then chinese tutition for listening after that then watch movie...but haha most likely i will be joining my bros for dinner later on in the night so hopefully that will make up for it.i am so sorry bros and guys

Lyrical expression( the sentence structure may seem abit weird)

You make me feel good when i hurt so bad,barely gettin mad,im so glad i found you.i love bein around you.you make it easy,as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.).made my mistakes let you down and i cant, i cant hold on for too long ran my whole life in the ground and i cant,i cant get up when your gone somethings breaking up i feel like giving up i wont walk out untill you know so here i go scream my lungs out and i try to get to you, you are my only one i let go but theres just no one that gets me like you do you are my only,my only one.I want to stand where I can see,where I'm watching you love me,I wish i could see,You and myself.I wish there was something inside me,To keep you beside me.And say,What you really feel.You know i need,Something that's real.I wish there was something inside me,To keep you beside me.I wanna know if i could be,Someone to turn to,That could never hurt you.But i don't know what you think of me,I should've told you everything.I never gave you anything.I should've told you everything.If i could give you anything,Then i would tell you everything. so Hear me now, you will never be alone:)

Talk

hmmm haha well i just realised that i have not been chilling and just talking about anything or everything under the big blue sky with anyone... kind of have a craving for that but then again it has to be done with the right person and at the right time and place(omg this sounds like sex!But it is not!) haven't been able to just vomit out like all the feelings and thoughts that i have to anyone due to me being to busy which has caused me to be too tired and forget about that thought(vomit out like all the feelings and thoughts) of doing so and in the end that thought just comes and goes.looks like everyone is just too busy these days inculding me, kinda miss those carefree times(like kotex ar Carefree)haha ohh well whats there to ask for :)

I need a clear sign from you



oh ya i updated my playlist at the side

Parents and what they have done that we know not

'PersonalPhoto'

this is convo between me and Liren(ali) when i asked him to help me vet my DPA appilcation haha it was like so funny when he asked me to include [when i am free i like to edit my personal photos] haha like hahaha personal photos sounds so wrong haha

Hmmmmmm

ok well i am abt to bathe but i found a letter that was sent to me by myself during the SEC 4 camp where we were asked to write out things that we want to achieve within the months haha i managed to do some so yea ok now what hahha ok went to wash/develop my photos for DPA today and my do they cost alot like you know 45 8r photos cost like $180 ahhh..... ........... ....... ...... haha of course i didn't have those i had them printed out in 4r hopefully they will come out ok eh and i cannot believe the price difference for 4r and 5r cause for 4r to like develop 45 of them it costs like $18 but for 5r it cost like $64.+ so i had to have them in 4r... haha i am going to apply for DPA so pray for me and wish me all the beat so to get shortlisted and able to go for the interview which will in turn get me place in the course i am applying for:) thanks and BYE

HAPPY Birthday JOLYN:)

hahaha 2 more months and its my turn:)

Yes!Yes!YES!

hahah thank GOD that my Chinese Oral was today haha although reading was abit abrupt but other then that haha during the conversation i managed to make the examiners smile and keep nodding their heads like as if they were at a rock concert and they were rather impressed by my conversation and one even said that i jiang de hen hao!:) zhen de jiang de hen hao and the otherone which was the 'stricter'(to some extend ) one smile kept going wider and wider:) so Thank GOD my also haha it was because i was like sort of preparing for it like yesterday and the funniest thing was that all the thing written in the notes my teacher gave was not very relavent. oh and just as i was waiting outside i was like pretending that the Convo Qn. is abt the Youth Olympics and Guess, then Edwin was like' aiya you don any how say lah! WON't come out one LAH!' then i was like'What if come out leh?!' then Ed win said "then i give you one tight slap' haha and i guess you know what happens next right the Convo Qn. was Youth Olympics:) then Physics paper today was quite a breeze:) ohh and there was this convo i overheard when i was on the bus to school today
-Convo-
A:'Ehh you know i start working when i was 16 you know!'then shows B something on his back
B:'orh, mmmm...'
(A starts to try to spike B's hair whent he are like grown man then B thinks that his hair is spiked and does the action to like pull the spikes down whenhis hair was still in the same shape)
A: 'Eh you know ar i sell my car leh!i want to buy that kind of car points out to the car outside the window'
B:'orh'
A:'eh you dare to sit my car anot?'
(B shakes head)
A:'Why! ? nevermind lah we sit together i drive then we go heaven together lah!'
(at this point i was like WTH and i had a smile that was abt to become a laughter but just too tired to do so)
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ohh i just remebered i heard this convo of this two bengs talking in the crowed lift in the cineleisure lift which like takes a long time to go down some time ago with Tim
---Convo---
A:'eh i tell you ar i want to peirce here, here,here, here,h....'(he starts to piont on like all over his whole face while saying this)
B: 'then how? when people punch you thenall drop then bleed then you cry!'
A:' No lah i more heong ar arhhh!'
(after like 3 seconds)
A:'eh the lift alot of people ar. you know ar got one time ar i take this lift ar alot of people ready ar then the door open got this woman she know ahe not that small ar then she still come in. then i said Overweight SEio~!' ' then she walk out'
hahah and that line was like in me and tim'smind for the whole day and we kept laughing abt it all the way home:)

I love it when you call

I found a switch
Turned it on
I hit the ditch
You carried on
I was so near
Now you're so far
Are you quite sure
Just who you are

Oh I-I-I-I-I
O you could chose a friend but you don't seem to have the time
Oh I-I-I-I-I
I wonder if you ever get to say what's on your mind
O take a little time, take a little time

I love it when you call
I love it when you call
I love it when you call
But you never call at all
So what's the complication it's only conversation
I love it when you call
But you never call at all

Remember me, I used to be the best time buddy
That you couldn't wait to see
But getting old, it takes its toll
And hearts getting broken lead to people growing cold

Oh I-I-I-I-I-I
I'm flipping with a coin that's got a tail on either side
Oh I-I-I-I-I-I
I'm gonna be the one who makes you stop and realise
You could have it all
We should have it all

I love it when you call
I love it when you call
I love it when you call
But you never call at all
So what's the complication it's only conversation
I love it when you call
But you never call at all

Yea I wonder where you been
Yea I wonder who you seen
And I hope you find your train
When you do I really hope it's all it seems

I love it when you call
I love it when you call
I love it when you call
But you never call at all
So what's the complication it's only conversation
I love it when you call
But you never call at all