Thinking too Far?

well frankly speaking i am very tired. however school has been rather fun these days but i am still so tired am my oh my what'sup with like all the teachers with all the sudden seage of class tests that just bombs on you like one day before the test which totally kills your mood for the whole day. oh well what to do O's are coming so just take the test asafter all they do not get inculded in the O's so ahhh anything i realised that i have not really been laughing my ass off on just a single thing for a long time and feel really happy for a even longer time i feel... i kinda don't feel that's the part that sucks or actually i don't know how to explain it i may laugh and all but it is rather temporary... perhaps i just need someone to talk to right now something tangible yea kinda sad right... i have been wondering what will happen after i die but it is not more of where i end up cause i am sure of where i will end up:) but it is more of what will happen to the people i know who are still alive. how my parents would react to it how my class would be like without me how my church will be without me how my cousin and aunties will be without me how many people will cry upon hearing the news that i died how many people will attend my funneral how many people would still remember on my birthday how many people would remember my death aniversary how my room will be how and where my things will go where would my bass be given away?how my sister would react how my best bros would jam how the girl which have fallen for me would react (not of any i know) how my girlfriend or wife would react(not that i have one ) haha well it is rather scary yea :) haha but if there is going to be a big commotion or affect people's lives it would mean that i actually impacted or play a part in many people's lives yea :)